if only it were something else

i feel really stoned today. i was making oatmeal this morning, and i totally forgot about it cooking on the stove once i left the kitchen. i ended up making oatmeal cake. it was all right once i added some soy milk and strawberries.

i'm not sure what's going on. i was out late last night for a meeting for work. it was a very upsetting meeting--i went from wanting to implode to wanting to cry. i'm forever amazed at how larger-resourced organization have no qualms about exploiting and pimping small community-based organizations for their own benefit. i'm praying for the universe to send some lightning to the appropriate fuckheads.

i think that's why i'm so numb today. i'm still in shock about shit that shouldn't be so shocking. what did i expect from these over-resourced twits?

*** exes and target ***
i had such a strange dream today. an ex of mine was in it. i was at a bar talking to his roommate when my ex arrived. shortly after, his new girlfriend arrived. i thought, "she looks like an uglier version of him." i tried to ignore him, but he was at my table.

skip to...

i was getting a behind the scenes look at target. i saw an open drawer full of several pairs of scissors. i thought, "they really want to make sure their employees have readily accessible scissors." everything was bright and red in the store. there was nobody there except my ex's roommate. after talking to him, i realized he wasn't as much of an airhead as i had originally thought. then i woke up.

i think i'll make myself a cup of coffee.