regret and love: living with all of the above

today i watched, "stretchmarks" by veena cabreras-sud today. my friend, "m" and i had screened it years ago for this women of color film festival that we put together. i had forgotten how beautiful a film it was. in it, veena talks about the loneliness and love that she feels as a single mother. how her son is sometimes the only one to bring her flowers or hold her hand for days--the only person who will not leave in the morning. at the same time, he's the reason her lovers don't call back, or why she's always just tired. she says she worries for when her son is old enough to understand her film; she hopes that one day he'll understand that "regret and love can live together." amen.